I'm 22 years old for fucks sake!

Anyone who's an atheist or agnostic knows how difficult it can be to let the people around you know it and then to go further and actually talk about it can feel like a nightmare. At least it does to me. I've gotten reactions that range from disgust to saying like "You'll think about things differently when you're older". Why do I have to feel like I'm walking on eggshells around them. I feel as though they are blindly believing in something for which they know nothing about. To me this is delusional . I'm not arrogant or think I'm in anyway better than anyone else but I just don't see how being religious ( believing in a supernatural creater that no one has ever seen) is beneficial mentally, but for some reason I'm the child. And I know some people will read this and think wow how arrogant and close minded, but I'm not wrong in saying that the man who finds Jesus in his cereal or talks to him in his head should be in a padded room right?

Men

I most of the time prefer men to women. just a better environment. much less unnecessary drama. you can feel comfortable in company without it being this "look at me" deal, but there is a special variety of men who seem to always have something to prove, someone to fight and territories to claim. The ones that start fights with anyone and everyone for giving them the wrong look, or glanceing at thier girl, or most of the time nothing at all, well 90% of the time the whole entire thing is a complete misunderstanding, but they turn it into a thing beacuse manhood for some reason can only be claimed by violence, domination and drunkin anger. it doesnt make you look masculin or strong, you look weak, immature, and well honestly gay. Ok we get it. you work out , and don't take shit. that doesnt really say much to me about youre personality, but that it's weak and insecure and obviously this is the only way you can feel better about yourself. sorry.

Don't get my wrong women do this too, but in a more mental playing field. I however can just ignore insecure women, but men can't ignore a punch in the face for looking in another guys direction.

It is easier for a camel to go through the eye of a needle than a rich man to enter into the kingdom of heaven.

Funny thing I happened to me yesterday, I was driving down the highway and saw a porsch (speeding) and what do i see on the mirror but a rosarie.
Religion .... no maybe I'll stick to Christianity..for now..is by far the most immature part of the human race I have ever witnessed. It just doesnt make sence to me people that have so much reason and logic in life about everything else believe that a man lived in a whale, and that noah mated every single animal on earth. The concept of religion is good in that it gives people some values and makes us more civillized( beacuse people can't just not kill each other on thier own) but I hate hate hate people who think that beacuse they believe something theyve never witnessed and just read about ( accually most Christians never read the bible) that for some reason they are more just and wise in the things that they do. It's the craziest form of brainwashing. You arnt wise! youre easitly manipulated! it's the type of people that allowed Hitler to slaughter jews! and americans to burn witches, I understand that people for some reason need this feeling of purpose in life and need to have shelter from the fact that maybe just maybe nothing happens when we die, but its childish. No one, no matter what they tell you knows jack shit about what happens in the, if any afterlife, no one knows if there is this man in the sky called god, who supposidly is Omniscient, but if this is so, why would an all knowing, all powerful being allow evil things in the world? or why would he make us sinful at all? and if this is so then god created the devil himself and we have no power or role in our own lives.

And another thing! you can't pick and choose! I know christians who went off to war! what the hell is that? You can't use religion to justify anything that you do! you have to FOLLOW it . allthough i geuss its kind of hard to beacuse almost all of it contradicts itself.

Leviticus 20:9
For every one that curseth his father or his mother shall be surely put to death - I'm pretty sure this is a commandment right?

It is easier for a camel to go through the eye of a needle than for a rich man to enter the kingdom of God. Mark 10:25 - I see rich women sit at a table for hours drinkin coffee and talking about how religous they are. shouldnt you be vonunteering or something, why arent you at work?

Matthew 6:5-15

V5 And when thou prayest, thou shalt not be as the hypocrites are: for they love to pray standing in the synagogues and in the corners of the streets, that they may be seen of men. Verily I say unto you, They have their reward. - My favorite :)

There are also many other insanelt crazy things in the bible such as:
dancing with snakes, drinking poisen, speaking in tounges, stoneing children, women should be silent

Verbal Vomit.

So anyone reading this that knows me, knows I keep to myslef most of the time. I just don't have very much to sayto the gerneal public, fuck I don't even expect anyone to read this silly thing. But I find myself most of the time wishing that people would just shut the fuck up. And I feel that most people have this same view, but neglect to stop from going on and on, topic after topic with random verbal vomit that's unrelated to anyone else but themselves, just to hear themselves talk, but somehow think that other people are accually takeing it in.

I'm not negative or a grinch, its just the truth.

-Scarlet Begonias

Scarlet Begonias

I think very highly of peace and that it is possible. It's the view that evil and war are inescapable things that are just part of what makes us human beings that keep us from it. And really I blame this on religion. It single handedly persuaded most to not ask questions, to obey and to not think about things because hell! it's written down right here! here is my definition:

Religion: Stories told that can be manipulated to serve ones will and disguise wrong-doing as moral by the ones who know the truth- its a psychological tool.

and really its a fuckin good one.

The story of my agnosticism goes like this. first i hate atheists. they don't understand that they are just on the complete flip of the matter. Proving Gods existence or nonexistence is not the question. It can't be done. All things are possible and to say that anything in a world after death does or doesn't exist is just something we can't possibly answer. What we know about anything really could be wrong. and it doesn't matter. I'm completely content knowing that after i die there are endless possibilities including nonexistence. and it makes me appreciate the small possible meaningless life I've been fortunate enough to receive. and I'm sure if more people lived like this people would spend a little less time being depressed and lazy and go out there and enjoy every minute without a worry, cause one thing that is certain, is that life is short and spending it constantly praying for a raise or that new fish tank you you were eyeing at the walmart is not the way. A "god" that put you here to feel bad, and not enjoy what he gave you is torture and not someone i want to be associated with.

-Scarlet Begonias

In the beginning...

So, really all blogging is is a way for people to express themselves freely without feeling threatened. It's like free therapy. We need to know someone is listening, and that we have some sort of a voice and that someone out there is paying attention, even though outside of it most people don't really convey the radical thinking that naturally we all have. I am no exception.

So here's what i want to express in this particular portal:
My life as it is and will become, my views and reactions on particular issues, and general "whatever" about nonsense that no one will understand except for myself.

I live in what was fomally the United states of America and I believe in the simple fact that ignorence is not bliss and that knowlege is in fact power. too many people go about thier day trying to ignore what is going on around them to give themselves "peace of mind". This is what the people in power are hoping for. that you will sit in front of your fox news and reality tv and just accept things for the way they are, when you know we have been Raped of our consitution and freedoms which we formally stood for and here is just one example:
The USA Patriot Act or Uniting and Stregnthaning America by Providing Appropriate Tools Required to Intercept and Obstruct Terrorism
This act inables our govenment to look through any individuals medical records, emails, phones, and credit history for no reason.

This is one of many issues I'm completely pissed about and will be discussing further.